I fled Him, down the nights and down the days;
I fled Him, down the arches of the years;
I fled Him, down the labyrinthine ways Of my own mind; and in the mist of tears I hid from Him, and under running laughter. Up vistaed hopes I sped; And shot, precipitated,
Adown Titanic glooms of chasmèd fears, From those strong Feet that followed, followed after. But with unhurrying chase, And unperturbèd pace, Deliberate speed, majestic instancy, They beat — and a Voice beat More instant than the Feet "All things betray thee, who betrayest Me." I pleaded, outlaw-wise,
By many a hearted casement, curtained red, Trellised with intertwining charities;(For, though I knew His love Who followèd, Yet was I sore
Lest, having Him,
I must have naught beside.)But, if one little casement parted wide, The gust of His approach would clash it to: Fear wist not to evade, as Love wist to pursue.
Across the margent of the world I fled, And troubled the gold gateways of the stars, Smiting for shelter on their clangèd bars; Fretted to dulcet
And silvern chatter the pale ports o' the moon.
I said to Dawn:
Be sudden — to Eve:
Be soon; With thy young skiey blossoms heap me over From this tremendous Lover —Float thy vague veil about me, lest He see!
I tempted all His servitors, but to
My own betrayal in their constancy,
In faith to Him their fickleness to me, Their traitorous trueness, and their loyal deceit.
To all swift things for swiftness did I sue; Clung to the whistling mane of every wind. But whether they swept, smoothly fleet, The long savannahs of the blue; Or whether,
Thunder-driven, They clanged his chariot 'thwart a heaven,
Plashy with flying lightnings round the spurn o' their feet: — Fear wist not to evade as Love wist to pursue. Still with unhurrying chase, And unperturbèd pace, Deliberate speed, majestic instancy, Came on the following Feet, And a Voice above their beat — "Naught shelters thee, who wilt not shelter Me."I sought no more that after which I strayed In face of man or maid;
But still within the little children's eyes Seems something, something that replies,
They at least are for me, surely for me!
I turned me to them very wistfully;
But just as their young eyes grew sudden fair With dawning answers there,
Their angel plucked them from me by the hair."Come then, ye other children,
Nature's —
With me" (said I) "your delicate fellowship; Let me greet you lip to lip, Let me twine with you caresses, Wantoning With our Lady-Mother's vagrant tresses, Banqueting With her in her wind-walled palace, Underneath her azured daïauts; Quaffing, as your taintless way is, From a
Lucent-weeping out of the dayspring." So it was done:
I in their delicate fellowship was one —Drew the bolt of Nature's secrecies. I knew all the swift importings On the wilful face of skies; I knew how the clouds arise Spumèd of the wild sea-snortings; All that's born or dies Rose and drooped with; made them
Of mine own moods, or wailful or divine; With them joyed and was bereaven. I was heavy with the even, When she lit her glimmering tapers Round the day's dead sanctities. I laughed in the morning's eyes.
I triumphed and I saddened with all weather, Heaven and I wept together,
And its sweet tears were salt with mortal mine;
Against the red throb of its sunset-heart I laid my own to beat, And share commingling heat;
But not by that, by that, was eased my human smart.
In vain my tears were wet on Heaven's grey cheek.
For ah! we know not what each other says, These things and I; in sound I speak —Their sound is but their stir, they speak by silences.
Nature, poor stepdame, cannot slake my drouth; Let her, if she would owe me,
Drop yon blue bosom-veil of sky, and show me The breasts o' her tenderness:
Never did any milk of hers once bless My thirsting mouth. Nigh and nigh draws the chase, With unperturbèd pace, Deliberate speed, majestic instancy; And past those noisèd Feet A voice comes yet more fleet — "Lo! naught contents thee, who content'st not Me."Naked I wait Thy love's uplifted stroke!
My harness piece by piece Thou hast hewn from me, And smitten me to my knee; I am defenceless utterly. I slept, methinks, and woke,
And, slowly gazing, find me stripped in sleep.
In the rash lustihead of my young powers, I shook the pillaring
And pulled my life upon me; grimed with smears,
I stand amid the dust o' the mounded years —My mangled youth lies dead beneath the heap.
My days have crackled and gone up in smoke,
Have puffed and burst as sun-starts on a stream. Yea, faileth now even
The dreamer, and the lute the lutanist;
Even the linked fantasies, in whose blossomy twistI swung the earth a trinket at my wrist,
Are yielding; cords of all too weak
For earth with heavy griefs so overplussed. Ah! is Thy love indeedA weed, albeit an amaranthine weed,
Suffering no flowers except its own to mount? Ah! must Designer infinite! —Ah! must Thou char the wood ere Thou canst limn with it?
My freshness spent its wavering shower i' the dust;
And now my heart is as a broken fount,
Wherein tear-drippings stagnate, spilt down ever From the dank thoughts that
Upon the sighful branches of my mind. Such is; what is to be?
The pulp so bitter, how shall taste the rind?
I dimly guess what Time in mists confounds;
Yet ever and anon a trumpet
From the hid battlements of Eternity;
Those shaken mists a space unsettle,
Round the half-glimpsèd turrets slowly wash again. But not ere him who summoneth I first have seen,
With glooming robes purpureal, cypress-crowned;
His name I know, and what his trumpet saith.
Whether man's heart or life it be which yields Thee harvest, must Thy harvest-fields Be dunged with rotten death? Now of that long pursuit Comes on at hand the bruit; That Voice is round me like a bursting sea: "And is thy earth so marred, Shattered in shard on shard? Lo, all things fly thee, for thou fliest Me! Strange, piteous, futile thing!
Wherefore should any set thee love apart?
Seeing none but I makes much of naught" (He said),"And human love needs human meriting: How hast thou merited —Of all man's clotted clay the dingiest clot? Alack, thou knowest
How little worthy of any love thou art!
Whom wilt thou find to love ignoble thee, Save Me, save only Me?
All which I took from thee I did but take, Not for thy harms,
But just that thou might'st seek it in My arms. All which thy child's
Fancies as lost,
I have stored for thee at home: Rise, clasp My hand, and come!" Halts by me that footfall: Is my gloom, after all,
Shade of His hand, outstretched caressingly? "Ah, fondest, blindest, weakest, I am He Whom thou seekest!
Thou dravest love from thee, who dravest Me."
