i wish we didn't say goodbye,
i know it's not forever,
only until next time.
but i can't help but not wanting those extra miles.
we clearly want the conversation to stay on play.
so why wait until the next day?
my hands aching to reach,
but i may seem weird to just wipe your cheeks.
so, i twist my scarf instead while i smile back.
my feet almost floating to follow you to the door.
i really want to run to you.
stop your track.
tell you how bad i wanted to text you last night.
how jealous i got
when you answered your girl mates on your feed.
how mad i got for no reason at all.
how i wish i could write you a birthday wish
and give you the warmest hug i could give,
full of wishes and hopes for your dreams.
tell you how warm you make me feel.
how floaty and disgustingly soft i get when we speak.
how much i enjoy when we tease each other
and get all flirty in between.
how much i would rather let you stay the night.
talk about all of our fears while we stay in each other's arms.
we let our fingertips communicate.
no need for speaking afterward,
let the cool breeze speak and fill the awkward spaces.
let us look at the moonlight out my window
that doesn't seem so lonely when you're around.
you will tell me about your day,
and i will tell you back.
i know they say it's too early,
but what if i just confess?
why do we keep following those social constructions
if i could simply say "i love you" instead?
what if i just suggest getting married and building out a whole life?
what about it?
why do we think it sounds weird if you might as well say "i do" back.
a lifetime
full of summer and traveling.
writing poems about you that rhyme.
naming every art piece with one of your nicknames.
making a whole future full of hope.
recover from every fear we have as fast as you finishing your smoke.
we could stop every guide around us,
we could just laugh loud.
never let anyone tell us we're wrong,
because technically, we are allowed.
tell the world how much we are capable of having and giving love.
tell our kids about how met and how we confessed.
teach them that maybe it is okay to have feelings being said.
but whatever, you probably have a confused look on your face now.
after i locked the door behind you so loud and fast.
just because i couldn't confess this time...
and feeling nervous to say goodbye back.
