Winter

The pungent smells of a California winter,

Grayness and rosiness, an almost transparent full moon.

I add logs to the fire,

I drink and I ponder. “In Ilawa,” the news item said, “at age 70 Died Aleksander Rymkiewicz, poet.” He was the youngest in our group.

I patronized him slightly,

Just as I patronized others for their inferior minds Though they had many virtues I couldn’t touch.

And so I am here, approaching the end Of the century and of my life.

Proud of my strength Yet embarrassed by the clearness of the view.

Avant-gardes mixed with blood.

The ashes of inconceivable arts.

An omnium-gatherum of chaos.

I passed judgment on that.

Though marked myself.

This hasn’t been the age for the righteous and the decent.

I know what it means to beget monsters And to recognize in them myself.

You, moon,

You,

Aleksander, fire of cedar logs.

Waters close over us, a name lasts but an instant.

Not important whether the generations hold us in memory.

Great was that chase with the hounds for the unattainable meaning of     the world.

And now I am ready to keep running When the sun rises beyond the borderlands of death.

I already see mountain ridges in the heavenly forest Where, beyond every essence, a new essence waits.

You, music of my late years,

I am called By a sound and a color which are more and more perfect.

Do not die out, fire.

Enter my dreams, love.

Be young forever, seasons of the earth.