Light flows our war of mocking words, and yet,
Behold, with tears mine eyes are wet!
I feel a nameless sadness o'er me roll.
Yes, yes, we know that we can jest,
We know, we know that we can smile!
But there's a something in this breast,
To which thy light words bring no rest,
And thy gay smiles no anodyne.
Give me thy hand, and hush awhile,
And turn those limpid eyes on mine,
And let me read there, love! thy inmost soul.
Alas! is even love too
To unlock the heart, and let it speak?
Are even lovers powerless to
To one another what indeed they feel?
I knew the mass of men
Their thoughts, for fear that if
They would by other men be
With blank indifference, or with blame reproved;
I knew they lived and
Trick'd in disguises, alien to the
Of men, and alien to themselves—and
The same heart beats in every human breast!
But we, my love!—doth a like spell
Our hearts, our voices?—must we too be dumb?
Ah! well for us, if even we,
Even for a moment, can get
Our heart, and have our lips unchain'd;
For that which seals them hath been deep-ordain'd!
Fate, which
How frivolous a baby man would be—By what distractions he would be possess'd,
How he would pour himself in every strife,
And well-nigh change his own identity—That it might keep from his capricious
His genuine self, and force him to
Even in his own despite his being's law,
Bade through the deep recesses of our
The unregarded river of our
Pursue with indiscernible flow its way;
And that we should not
The buried stream, and seem to
Eddying at large in blind uncertainty,
Though driving on with it eternally.
But often, in the world's most crowded streets,
But often, in the din of strife,
There rises an unspeakable
After the knowledge of our buried life;
A thirst to spend our fire and restless
In tracking out our true, original course;
A longing to
Into the mystery of this heart which
So wild, so deep in us—to
Whence our lives come and where they go.
And many a man in his own breast then delves,
But deep enough, alas! none ever mines.
And we have been on many thousand lines,
And we have shown, on each, spirit and power;
But hardly have we, for one little hour, Been on our own line, have we been ourselves—Hardly had skill to utter one of
The nameless feelings that course through our breast,
But they course on for ever unexpress'd.
And long we try in vain to speak and
Our hidden self, and what we say and
Is eloquent, is well—but 'ts not true!
And then we will no more be
With inward striving, and
Of all the thousand nothings of the
Their stupefying power;
Ah yes, and they benumb us at our call!
Yet still, from time to time, vague and forlorn,
From the soul's subterranean depth
As from an infinitely distant land,
Come airs, and floating echoes, and conveyA melancholy into all our day.
Only—but this is rare—When a belov{'e}d hand is laid in ours,
When, jaded with the rush and
Of the interminable hours,
Our eyes can in another's eyes read clear,
When our world-deafen'd
Is by the tones of a loved voice caress'd—A bolt is shot back somewhere in our breast,
And a lost pulse of feeling stirs again.
The eye sinks inward, and the heart lies plain,
And what we mean, we say, and what we would, we know.
A man becomes aware of his life's flow,
And hears its winding murmur; and he
The meadows where it glides, the sun, the breeze.
And there arrives a lull in the hot
Wherein he doth for ever
That flying and elusive shadow, rest.
An air of coolness plays upon his face,
And an unwonted calm pervades his breast.
And then he thinks he
The hills where his life rose,
And the sea where it goes.
