To Myself

ER all, you are my rather tedious hero; It is impossible (damn it!) to avoid Looking at you through keyholes. But come!

At least you might try to be Even, let us say, a Graceful Zero Or an Eminent Molecule, gorgeously employed. Have you not played Hamlet's father in the wings Long enough, listening to poets groan, Seeking a false catharsis In flesh not yours, through doors ajar In the houses of dead kings, In the gods' tombs, in the coffins of cracked stone? Have you not poured yourself, thin fluid mind, Down the dried-up canals, the powdering creeks, Whose waters none remember Either to praise them or condemn, Whose fabulous cataracts none can find Save one who has forgotten what he seeks? Your uncle, the Great Harry, left after him The memory of a cravat, a taste in cheese, And a way of saying "I am honoured." Such things, when men and beasts have gone, Smell sweetly to the seraphim. Believe me, fool, there are worse gifts than these.